We were supposed to be up before six this morning to walk the dogs and beat the heat. It’s after seven. Not that we can’t go now but the dogs don’t do well in the heat. And, I worry about cancer. We always say we will take them in the evening if we miss the morning but we rarely ever do. We like our time alone in the evening when we walk. And the dogs want to chase the cats and howl at the moon! Actually they don’t howl at the moon but they do yipe and howl. So embarrassing! They need some training and we have the time but never do it.
Normally on Monday, Wednesday and Friday after our walk we go to the gym. I bet you are wondering how a couple of broke people can afford a gym membership. Well I do too. I wonder why we do a lot of things. The bottom line is it’s hard to go backwards. No one wants to live with less than what they are used to having. Not that we have ever had a lot. We got by. We were comfortable. THIS is not comfortable. I don’t want to go to the gym today. I’m tired of pretending to have and be something I am not. I can work out at home. I kept some of my small equipment from before we moved. I’d sell it but really, it wouldn’t be worth it. If I am lucky I might get $10 for all of it. Sure that’s $10 I don’t have now but I just don’t want to do it. Besides if I can get my husband to cancel those gym memberships I’m going to be glad I have it. He doesn’t know it yet but I am NOT going to the gym today.
My name is not Alexandra. I didn’t want to use my real name. I admit I am embarrassed at our situation. The only person that is remotely aware of how bad it is would be my mother-in-law and she doesn’t know everything. I haven’t even told my mom and I won’t. My husband and my daughter need names. Any suggestions? I suppose I could ask them and if no one else makes a suggestion I will. But for now they are husband and daughter.
Well, it’s time to start my day. I have to figure out what that will be. I’d like to be moving away from this mess and not wallowing in it.
Later!
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